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Rediscovered!

2010-05-07T18:22:00.001-07:00

I just remembered that I owned this blog. I have been very negligent, and will again be.
I looked at some of the things that I wrote before, and am kind of embarrased. There are some maturity factors, my drawings look kind of really retarded, and I sound extremely liberal -which I was before.

I honestly feel very much like deteling this blog, but I thought about it and decided that I won't.
I cherish all the footsteps and visits that all of the people paid on this blog, and I would do the same for mine.
In the future, there might be an occasion when I would again remember this blog and be even more embarrased, but I guess I'll have to live with it. LOL

On the other hand, I'm planning to start a new blog.
I hate to do this, but since I do want to re-start blogging and don't want to keep the old and the new on the same page at the same time, I am moving to a new blog.

The URL is http://www.mucho-del-mundo.blogspot.com/.
Why Spanish, all of a sudden?...Who knows?
But whoever wants to keep in touch can always drop by and leave me a note :)

Love y'all!

The_World_Full_of_Funness_

2009-02-08T18:37:00.000-08:00

Tokyo Dance Trooper in Shibuya

That was just totally random. Ha!

For more info., type "tokyostormtrooper" from Youtube.

You'll see a whole bunch of videos taken by him :)

I was actually going to post about the books I've finished till now(which weren't so bad), but just kind of changed my mind. I'm too lazy-_- Bad me... But anyways, have a good day y'all!

From_school_

2009-01-22T11:07:00.000-08:00

I'm in my maths class right now, with an apple laptop checked out from the computer lab. There's something hilarious happened just now in the classroom, so I'm just briefly going to talk about it. Geez, it still smells bad in here.

I found two microwaveable buns from deep inside my locker on my way back to the classroom from the student center, to where I went to buy a white chocolate raspberry cookie before the class started. The buns seemed like they were in there for at least a few weeks, so I brought them to classroom and tried one. It was all rock-hard and cold so I spat it out immediately. The other one, I put in the microwave.

I don't seem to remember how long I put it there for. But after a while, someone said,

"There's a fire on the microwave..."

It was nothing more than a distraction, but the maths room and people who were there still smell like my burnt bun. Yeah.

Seo_Taiji_BERMUDA_[Triangle]_

2009-01-19T14:23:00.000-08:00

Innocence

Pandora's Box

Failure

Temptation

Sex

Premature

Pain

Irreversible_

I usually try not to watch this kind of gothic -very dark, has a girl, has blood, has roses, wings, and a lot of graphics/visually striking scenes - M/Vs. So many people think it's way cool, but from a viewpoint of a person who was once into it and got out of it a couple years ago, I know it could be seen as simply EMO and/or retarded. No offence to the admirers of that genre, I just figured it out and that's the way I put it when I realized. It's cool and all that, but this kind of things are just too stereotypical and over-tries to attract some attention by putting beautiful things and awful things together and making them all horrid in the end.

It's just that this time it's Seo Taiji and is kind of different from all the rest of dark-angel-gothic wannabe music videos. You will notice that it is kind of realistic if you watch this M/V with some efforts to comprehend the context. It has its own metaphor: that's what I'm trying to say.

The lyrics are very metaphoric, too. It has deeper meanings than just good-sounding words, but Taiji makes it poetic. I could feel the sense of satire and irony from the big picture of it; about the teens' sexual immorality, about the kids wanting to grow up faster without knowing what it takes and what lies ahead. The sensational lyric drives it to be focused more on sex-related issues, though I see a more general picture.

It's quite easy to see what's going on in the first half of the M/V. But from when the girl starts wearing the black cloths and makeups, I was slightly confused. Isn't she supposed to be dead? Is there more to tell? Well, that was the beginning of the whole message, as I later found out. She -metaphorically- had sex with someone, and tasted the sweet fruit of immorality. She then wraps herself to be more mature-looking, because she senses that the "outer world" that awaits her is sinister, dangerous, and scary. As she does that, she's hiding her weaknesses and childishness(or rather, the innocence) behind the bold outfit. However, the wings that are visible by CG when she's walking out in the high-heels imply that she misses her old self inside.

She gets hurt, falls down, and cries. But the last part... her expression has lost that of a child. She stares and makes some kind of gross magic portion. She is no longer that girl in the beginning, and it seems impossible that she returns. That is like the Bermuda Triangle, where one may never get out of.

Not just I am a fan of STJ, but of his way of talking to people through music. This M/V got me a lot to think of. I can't say that I liked it nor loved it, but I still have a lot to think about this. Awfully good.

Beloved_

2009-01-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

Getting myself a soft and furry birthday present.
Happy 17th Birthday, me =)

My_doodles_plus_babbles_

2008-12-29T18:55:00.000-08:00

A portrait of Haruki Murakami.

I've posted about him before and I still like him very much.

I've just finished reading "Kakfa on the Shore", which is literally full of metaphors.

Confusing and knda feels weird/surrealistc but still, great.

Now I'm working through "Metamorphosis" by Franz Kafka, just because it happened to be on the bookshelf in front of me when I finished the Murakami book. Strangely enough, I don't remember reading it before, but I "remember" what's gonna be coming up next in the scene. Maybe I have read that book before, after all. Who knows?

A random creature which looks like a..... dragon...?

I've uploaded a bigger version of this on my facebook album.

It's not done yet, though. I'm just uploading when I still have a hold on it, because I'm probably gonna throw it away unfinished(this is drawn on a A4 waste-paper). And of course I don't really feel like finishing this.

* * *

You might have noticed that I'm into Starcraft lately.

Both the game and the players of it :)

Well, I'm not a great player myself, and I even lose against pc.

So don't expect to see me on Battlenet...

Anyways, I've just gone to check out the new Starcraft 2 on Blizzard's website.....

And I was astounded - completely BLOWN AWAY - at the sight of all the great artworks.

Geez, gotta play it or I'd regret.

Check it out yourselves if you're interested.

Just google "Starcraft 2" and it's gotta be there.

Well that WAS some inspiration.

Especially this guy named Peter Lee(I'm guessing he's either a Korean or a Chinese) is simply amazing. I'm currently using his picture of Terran base with minerals and a bunker as my desktop background (and the SCVs! Cute little creatures!).

* * *

My Nikon P80 camera just arrived!!!!!

My camera that worths (almost)$300!!!!

Just love it =D

Now I'm just planning to take tons of pictures of whatever in sight.

...until I get tired of it (which is probably gonna be never)

STJ_Human_Dream_

2008-12-29T18:33:00.000-08:00

Who would believe this guy's actually in his late 30's?

'Charmer' by Lyn (feat. MC Mong)

2008-12-28T17:00:00.000-08:00

My life is like a song

매력쟁이 LYn & MC몽

another collaboration

너만을 생각하면 하루 꼬박

When I think about you even if

밥을 안 먹어도 난 너무 좋아

I don't eat for the whole day, I'm happy

사랑이란 건 원래 도박

In reality, love is a gamble

내 정신이 나갔나봐 너무 좋아

I guess I've gone crazy. I'm so happy.

분명 사랑에 빠졌어요 (I only think about you)

For sure, I've fallen in love (I only think about you)

내가 이럴 수는 없어요 (I keep fallin` 내 맘을 받아줘)

No other way I can be like this (I keep fallin`, take my heart)

밥을 먹다가도 TV 보다가도

Even when I eat or watch TV

괜히 마음이 찡해져요 (내 가슴도)

My heart gets tingly for no reason (same with me)

왜 내가 이럴까요

Why am I like this

내게 무슨 주문을 걸어 논거죠

You put a spell on me, didn't you

자꾸 그대가 떠올라요

You keep popping up on my mind

내 마음을 간지럽혀요

and tickle my heart

사랑이 또 내게 왔나 봐요 I guess love's come again for me

생김새는 몽을 닮았고

Even tho' you look like Mong*

몸매도 그리 좋진 않지만

and your body isn't that great

그래도 보면 볼수록 매력쟁이

but you charm me each time I see you

몽이면 어때 난 매력쟁이

So what if I'm Mong, I'm your Charmer

나에게 올인 해봐 give to me, oh

Why don't you go all in on me, give it to me

주문을 걸어 줘봐 부리디밥 밥

Put a spell on me, Bree-dee bop bop

뭐든지 필요하면 물어봐 Ask me anything if you need

Stand up get up on your feet

너와나 뗄 수 없는 하나의 빛

You and I are inseparable, a united light

그대 고백은 참 짜릿해 (우린 너무 비슷해)

Your proposes are so exciting (We're so similar)

우리 눈엔 하트가 만개(우리 사랑은 뜨겁게) Thousands of hearts in our eyes (Our love burns)

노래 부르면서 사랑에 빠졌어

We fell in love, singing

이제 내 손을 잡아줘요(늘 감사해)

Now hold my hand (Always thank you)

stand up get up on your feet stand up get up on your feet

내 눈을 봐요

Look into my eyes

그대 생각을 난 읽어요

I can read your mind

지금 내게 키스하겠죠

You're gonna kiss me now

달콤해요 우리 두 사람

We're sweet, two of us

생김새가 몽을 닮아도

Even if you look like Mong

몸매 역시 그리 좋진 않아도

and your body isn't that great

사랑해 내겐 너무 멋진 그대여

I love you, you look wonderful to me

Girl, Don`t you know that you're so so beautiful

이 노래가 끝나도 우리는

Even when this song ends

영원히 함께 할꺼야

We'll be together forever

빠 빠 빠 빰

Pa-ba ba bam (I keep fallin` 내 맘을 받아줘)

(I keep fallin`, take my heart)

사랑해 내겐 너무 멋진 그대여 I love you, you look wonderful to me

그대 생각을 난 읽어요 I can read your mind 지금 내게 키스하겠죠 You're gonna kiss me now 달콤해요 우리 두 사람 We're sweet, two of us

생김새가 몽을 닮아도 Even if you look like Mong

몸매 역시 그리 좋진 않아도 and your body isn't that great

사랑해 내겐 너무 멋진 그대여 I love you, you look wonderful to me

라 라 라 라 라

La la la la la

(Girl, Don`t you know that you're so so beautiful 널 위해서)

(Girl, Don`t you know that you're so so beautiful. For you,)

(I only think about you....I keep fallin` 내 맘을 받아줘)

(I only think about you....I keep fallin`, take my heart)

* "Mong" in the lyrics is referring to the Korean hip hop artist and actor, MC Mong, who also collaborated in this song's male rap part. He is well-known for his comical disposition, noticeable unique fashion style, and upbeat songs that he produce. However, he is not the very "best-looking" entertainer of all.

Hello, World.

2008-12-15T14:38:00.003-08:00

I'm still alive.

A funny one

2008-12-08T17:00:00.004-08:00

THAT's called AWESOME!

HAHAHAHAHA X)

I just kinda decided to do what I do to my Korean blog to this blog.

"I'm just going to do whatever I want to do with my blog, 'cause it's mine"

...is the motto for my Korean blog and from today on, it applies the same with THIS blog.

So don't say you don't like what's being posted, even if you really don't! Because I know it's gonna be better for this poor little not-usually-updated blog. I figured that if I put it this way and feel more free about my blog, I might actually have more to write about and remember to update more often.

Well, at least that's what happened to my Korean blog a few years ago... :P

These are the pics I recently drew;

they mentally bothered me so much that I couldn't help but finish them...

...Actually, I was just kidding.

I did them bit by bit in some of the classes at school and when I had more than enough time in my hands but had no access to internet. Computers, after all, could be what's keeping me from drawing more. Am I an addict? Hope not ;P

It's a bit early to say this, but

Merry Christmas

I have shiny nails :D

2008-11-08T19:57:00.002-08:00

...That was a random title. But yes, it's true that I have shiny nails. I've recently purchased a couple of fancy manicures and I just LOVE them! And guess what, I removed them last night with acetone, and the glitters would remain there. That was kind of exciting. Hahaha. I guess I'll apply some other colors tonight :P I realized that I easily get obssessed with things and not let go of them. I remember saying that I'm "currently obssessed with Nat King Cole's songs and Mozart's Little Star Variations". well, I am, and I picked up another thing to be obssessed with. Again! Yeah. YELLE - A Cause Des Garcons Fatal Bazooka feat Yelle - Parle à Ma Main They're in French, and I love Yelle! I like her voice when she raps :P Plus, the song is bright and I lke both the lyrics and the melodies. In fact, they're stuck in my head now that it's really hard to remove them.

They are both Koreans, and I think they might be the same person. There are some that says that he's hired by Converse to promote the brand in Korea, and it's kind of obvious from the second video. But still he's got some great moves! In fact, I'm currently teaching myself techtonik(or tecktonik) :P It's really interesting and I'm starting to get the gist of it. It's fun! Go and look for tutorials on youtube!
Oh by the way, it's really cool when a girl dances techtonik. Like B-girls are cool. I can't dance to that extent, though. I really need to get lighter. LOL

I really gotta have something more to post about. I was thinking of book postings, but there's none post-worthy that I've recently read of. But send me e-mails or contact me thru facebook. I mostly write back when you write on my facebook wall. Plus I don't go online on MSN that often now, just because I forget to log in. Sorry :P
Have a good day!

I'm updating!

2008-11-03T19:27:00.003-08:00

It's been a really long time since I last updated on this blog. To be honest, I've been updating on my Korean blog more than regularly, just because. Now it kind of feels weird writing on this blog again, 'cause I haven't been writing for so long. Yes, I regret. And for those who've been in and out of my blog just to see what's going on with me and my life, I hereby declare that I'm still alive! Sorry if I kept you anxious(though I suppose nobody would really have been..), I haven't forgotten about this blog yet! Okey. In fact, the trigger to this post was simple; I finally logged on to MSN and met Anas and Leonard. Thanks to you guys if you're reading this right now. Leonard mentioned something that was kind of unexpected (and don't ask back, because I know that you know!), and Anastasia was almost nagging me to post something on my blog, claiming that I don't have ANYTHING new on it. I have to admit that all this lack of update was due to my laziness, and not any busy-stuff going on. Of course I'm busy with school works, too! But I still had time to watch dramas and movies.. which proves that I was just lazy to type. All the un-replied mails and notes and everything - I have to confess now -, are to be blamed on me. My Korean blog, by the way, has loads of updates, because I was writing really short articles and/or the stuff that are to be discussed in Korean language (for an example, Korean pro-gamers, you know). I wholeheartedly apologize to all the regular visitors and to myself. I'm sorry for being so irresponsible. By the way, I'm on facebook now. It's kind of really convenient because you can see all the freinds' updates and it has a lot of small applications that you might find enjoyable. You can even chat with your friends if you happen to be on-line at the same time. The only thing about it is that you can't really modify the backgrunds and express more of yourself, but you still get to write about how you feel like at the moment by writing up your own status. One more thing before I get to my recent events, GOOD LUCK IN THE IGCSEs, LODGEANS! You've only got a few more left, and I hope you'll all do great! I hear that now is the study leave, so you guys gotta be having fun with all your books ;P Hahaha. Love you people. So, this is me in the Halloween costume. I bet you wouldn't really be able to tell, but this was a kitty cat costume with cute tails at the back :) I went to a party that night and went to trick or treat for the first time in my life :D That was so much fun and I wish I'd be able to do that next year, too :) Also from that night, I acquired about a month's supply of chocolates and candies! Yay! The costume was borrowed from my friend, and guess what! I had to go without the ears...ToT Well, no one actually cared much, and the costume and the boots pretty much covered the absence of the ears, so I wasn't too grave about it. And as you know, I'm seldom sad about anything! I love myself as so much of an optimist :) (I see silver linings from the clouds! LOL) I just purchased a pair of earring! A music note!! Isn't that adorable? I'm currently obsessed with Mozart's "Little Star" variations and Nat King Cole's L-O-V-E! I just can't get them away from my fingers and mouth :) I don't have a piano at my house, so I kind of visit my church every twice or thrice every week to play piano. I desperately wish I had one somewhere nearby, but not all the things in the world go the way you want them to go. Well there's really no way for me to get a piano unless I find a second-hand keyboard lying on the street, unbroken. Haha. That's just one of the possibilities tho.

And those are the onigiri's I made a couple of week ago. They tasted fine, too.

The carrots kind of make them look less nicer, but it's ll right! Anyways I loved them :P Well it's getting late and I got to retire to my room by now. Good night :) p.s. We were watching Akeelah and the Bee in English last week and that somehow reminded me of Mr. Peter. That ol' man kind of looks like him too :P

Pictures

2008-10-01T23:43:00.004-07:00

Recently I'm getting the impression that my blog is getting less wordy. Well, more words, people will get bored, but I just don't really feel right about this. When I first started this blog, my posts used to be more detailed and stuff, but now almost everything I upload are pictures, pictures, and pictures. *Hmph* I should write more rather than taking random pictures. Not that it's bad, I mean, it's fun both to watch and read.... But anyways, I'm gonna upload more today :P I've got tons of un-uploaded pictures on my phone memory card. Most of them are sel-cams, random stuff and landscapes(which my phone can't really get) that I never used or never gonna use, but are just stored there for the sake of being stored. It's just that I feel bad deleting them, so I leave them there until my memory's full. And that's kind of why I feel like revealing (some of) them in this post so that I'll get the satisfaction-type of feeling that I actually used them and eventually will get rid of them just because of the fact that they've been used. So, here goes; a part of my desk in my room. Love that antique clock, though it makes really annoying sounds if I set an alarm on it(and that's why I don't use it). There's some snacks, a waterbottle, some instant-coffee packets, my pencilcase(which is random and lame but cool), my pouch, a random book, my cellphone recharger, my hairband, some papers, brochures, and that thing which has pink pills in it(which, if you're a girl, you could possibly guess what that does). It's not this messy now. In fact, it's slightly....um, no, a lot better than this. I just kind of swept the things off the desk because it will look like a miniature junkyard in a week or two if I continued piling my stuff like that in the pic. Anyways it has more space then my old desk in Kuching, even though it doesn't have any drawers.

I really tend to get carried away as I'm typing. Haha. The tree is beautifully tall and this is the kind of tree you see everywhere in Washington. And because of these trees, Washington owns a wonderful nickname of "Evergreen State". Of course when I'm saying it's wonderful, I mean that I think it's wonderful. Is there anybody that aren't aware of the fact that I love trees and that my ambition is to plant trees? Well, if you didn't know, now you do.

This is a picture that I took from the back seat of the car while it was passing through the town of Tacoma. You can see a tiny part of back mirror in the bottom part! I don't exactly remember what this building was for, but I guess it was a museum or something. Or it could be an apartment or an office building... Anyways it looked nice and Europe :)

Me!!! Oh yeah it's me in the school bus. I intentionally covered my face up because my face looked crappy in this pic. But isn't the mask cute??? LOL

From this pic, I just wanted to show you what kind of things I wear to school. And guess what, it's barely fall here and I had to wear THAT. It's really cold for a person who's been living in all the hot countries for past 5+ years. Especially it was so hard when I first came, I thought I was going to freeze to death when it was still like summer for residents here.

Another shot from the same day. That was what I was wearing inside. Because the school building itself isn't so bad, I just wear anything indoors. The trouble is when you have to move from a building to another.

Just note that that place is my bathroom, not the school's.

Here's the last shot of me TRANSLATING in church. My job is to translate all the stuff that are said in Korean into English, since there are some people that don't understand Korean very well and some Americans coming to my church. Translating the entire sermon is harder then I thought, but it's cool ;P and I'm getting used to it somehow...

Don't I look like a singer in recording, or a voice of someone, or an announcer or a DJ? Haha.

Btw that's my own translating room at the back of the sanctuary. It's really nice and cozy inside, because it's like a cubicle box that has practically everything you need in order to concentrate. Studying there is really fun and it's really concentrateable in there! Love my space :D

Well, that's pretty much I have to upload. It's not in a very good resolution because -obviously- all I used was my cell's camera(Btw if you haven't noticed, I'm using the same Sony Ericsson phone from M'sia). A cell cam is a cell cam, so it can't possibly produce a photo in top quality.

But anyways, I'll try to post more "wordy" posts on from now on(except on certain occasions that I don't feel like writing very long), so beware people.

Ha ha, good night :)

P.S. Please do feel free to TAG me. Don't just come and go..........==

P.S.2 I printed the bookmarks out. Thanks a lot, I love them!- Audrey

Randomness...

2008-09-30T14:25:00.004-07:00

Again with my assigned Apple laptop. I had time to do this because I'm way ahead of the class schedule :)

And I'm supposed to be scared and trying to run away from my fingertips which are chasing me...

Whatever.

Random me :)

2008-09-26T22:35:00.004-07:00

Took this pic at school, on the Apple laptop during classtime :P

I made this spoon girl out of a left-over spoon from my English class' Milk and Cereal Day and some Sharpie markers. Her name is Rosie, just because she is wearing red. It's cuter if you actually see it, but, oh well. By the way, she does look sad in real -I guess because of her eyes - and is kind of creepy :D

Note that my head is actually the same size as Rosie's! LOL. My head really did shrink(at least it seems like it) in this pic ;P

I might take up arts again. I haven't been drawing for a real long time. I will attempt not to be discouraged by all the best artists around the world.

p.s. I didn't send ANY postcard to ANYONE (yet)

Hihihi!!!

2008-09-04T17:19:00.005-07:00

Hahaha. This is my first post since I came to America. Straight to the point, it's quite exciting and I kinda like my new school :) As some of you might already know, I absolutely love new things(as much as I love old things)! Oh and I received an Email from ChoHee that all the ppl are asking about me. Haha. I might just randomly call you guys up someday, so get ready for some surprise(but don't expect too much.. you guys know how lazy I am.. :P)! By the way I didn't have any time to send any of you postcards. Not that I don't miss you people, but I'm just too busy right now. I'm getting tons of homeworks every single day... ...And I somehow finished all of them so early today! Yay! Um, I like all the teachers, especially maths teacher who tells us to bring some musics in to listen together in the classes... and, um, we have new apple laptops in the computer lab! ...tho we can't use them in study hall times :P Plus there's a really huge bookstore and a public library in my neighborhood(The bookstore has a mini coffee shop in it!)!

...Yay me.

Guess I'll post more later :)

Good night!

Miss ya people ;P

The Last Day in Lodge Int'l

2008-08-25T07:10:00.002-07:00

I became a public bulletin! Hahaha.

( In fact, my school uniform did.)

I will miss everyone!

Those who are staying for A-levels, I will see you again next year.

Those who are not, just keep in touch.

Oh yeah, and those who will be coming back and will be in Kch from June to August,

I'll see you next year, too.

I'm quite busy with the last-minute packing now, so can't write any longer.

Haha. Anyways I will drap by at the school tomorrow morning on my way to the airport.

Good night!

p.s. Thanks for your TOUCHING post about me and the charcoal set, Anas.

Exactly!

2008-08-21T07:30:00.003-07:00

Now that's what I've always said about human beings being harmful for Earth.

All of us should plant some trees.

PLANT TREES!

SAVE THIS PLANET!

SAVE YOURSELVES!

I'm gonna plant some more trees in the future.

I might even hold a campaigne or something for tree planting, too.

LOVE YOUR PLANET, PEOPLE!

IT'S YOUR FUTURE!

(or your great-great-great-great-great..................grand-sons' or daughters'...)

I'm so in love

2008-08-18T05:03:00.006-07:00

with Amelie Nothomb

and Haruki Murakami.

And so I am going to read Kafka too.

I found out that many people who share a same favourite writer with me, share the most of the favourite writers as well. I found it out while randomly surfing the web with some of the authors' names as keywords, and found someone who shares a lot in common with me- in general! (And I liked her Myspace) And there were some I hadn't heard of. So I'm gonna read them as well........after finishing all the Amelie Nothomb's.

P.S. I permed my hair yesterday.

I used to look like this:

And I look like this now:

Now go clean your eyes. Quick!

(lol)

About August 26th, 2008.

2008-08-10T07:26:00.002-07:00

Note that I wrote the date in 'American' way. LOL. It's the morning plane at 11a.m. from Kuching, Malaysia. I'm taking MAS to Singapore and will stay there a night with Daddy. Then I'll take a United Airline to Narita, Japan, and then take off to Washington, USA. One of my friend informed me about this students' society called the NATIONAL HONORS SOCIETY. They'll take me in if I get 6 3.4s for GPA straight and produce a resume, 3 recommendation letters and 2 essays. I won't be able to join in my juniors year, 'cause there are only 4 quarters in a year, but hopefully in the seniors year. Plus I'd better get a sport to play. I'll have to work harder then ever to get all the credits for universities. And I'm already struggling to choose the major I'm gonna take, which will determine my future currier and thus the ability for me to pay off all my students loan once I get in to a university. This is hard, but fun. I love to leave, and I know that I can come back ehenever I want. I will do my BEST.

Stuff to talk about

2008-08-08T06:55:00.002-07:00

I've started reading a new book!

But I'm reading it in Korean version cause it's what I've got.

The Gospel itself is rather shocking because it asserts that Judas deceived Jesus because someone had to sacrifice Jesus' body to free His spirit from this world, and Judas was the chosen one among the deciples. The scary thing is that it says that Jesus taught Judas in private the secret knowledge and understanding of this universe and it says that this world which we live in is created by an evil angel(or god) called Nebro(meaning, the Deceiver), and thus for the descendants of Seth to escape from this world - which is corrupt and full of evil - and enter the Aeon of Eternity, they must have the knowledge of the real and almighty God. It's scary in a sense that 'Creator God' of this world is neither a supreme being or inherently good, and the philosophy of the Gospel of Judas is quite alien and different from any of the content in neither OT nor NT. It is said to be written by a group of Sethian gnocists in approx. before 180 A.D. Well, I'd better stick with what they taught me. There's gotta be reasons why they don't tell the common believers about those apocryphas. They could, in fact, be dangerous for us, whose faith isn't so settled and so. Another thing; I should've gone to Barnaby's birthday lunch thingie at 1 but I thought I had a church praise&worship team meeting at like 1:30. Although it turned out that it's on next week, not today, I've been terribly sick this morning and still not well until now. And my damn brother's been irritating me like hell while we were having our lunch at home(he never seems to get his filthy hands off my stuff) and we had a row, quarrel, and shouting. Consequence? We both got shushed by Daddy, even though it was appearant that the fault was on my stupid bro. Mum was like, 'You shan't have mentioned that while eating. You could've just told him to give it back later.' It really stinks to be the first-born. I'm all-right with patience. But do I have to have endarance too??? I HATE MY BROTHER. Gosh. Plus I'm really looking forward for this year's WCG. I'll be held at Germany this year!!! WCG 2008 Official Promo Video

About me leaving

2008-07-31T05:55:00.002-07:00

Yes, I'm leaving.

It may be a thing unexpected for many people, but they've known that I've always wanted to go out there and some knew how much I was eager to move to the opposite side of this globe. This is my path chosen and prepared, so I shall go. In fact, I can't wait to go :)

I'll probably be leaving on August 26th, evening plane. But anyways I will come to school until the 25th since my parents insisted on me so. And as there is no direct flight available from Kuching to Washington, I'll be stopping over in KL or Singapore(as far as I know, KCH-KL-Chicago-Washington is the route that MAS provides) and so it's gonna be a long trip.

Now all the teachers know about me going and almost everyone in year 11. Well I think they know.. I just told Mel today during BM and Jae Jung somehow knew it already even before I told people, so Dennis and James knows too... I'm so sorry to leave so abruptly and suddenly, but in fact it has all been planned since like 4 months ago. But to see the optimistic side, I don't have to take the IGCSE exams anymore!

And that depresses at the same time, 'cause the IGCSE was what I've been working for from last year.. and now when all the other people are doing the revisions and stuff, I feel kinda funny 'cause I know I won't take the Exams nor even the trials! So why study, or come to school for? Well I feel a bit wasted and all the teachers agreed.

And some people already posted about me leaving!(and I still have a whole month till departure!)

Audrey's comment (actually this has been posted like, 2 months ago)
Anas' comment (...yeah.)

And Ying wrote me sth like a profile and asked me to write one, too. Laura is telling me that she likes 'crazy sis(me!)' -tho I'm not sure whether this is relevant to my departure- and the Korean guys in my class said good luck! And all the reat of the ppl wished me good luck, too. The only thing is that I'm hearing too much of "So you're not taking IGCSEs???" which is exactly. the. same. reactions. from. everyone.

Well it's true that I'm kinda sad to leave my friends here.. but anyways it's for my 0wn good, right? So I'm going all positive and try to achieve my dreams(as told by Vincent today with an experiment) in America where all the people who dream of American Dreams end up in. It's a new path open for me, so why hesitate??

And oh don't worry. I'll be back in Kuching during the summer hols. Probably. So if you are staying here for A-levels and stuff, you can still see me next year :)

So, Ciao!(for now)

p.s. 1:

I'm seriously running out of books to read. I'm trying to concentrate on 'Emma', but it's a bit boring compared to Emily Bronte's other fictions since all it talks about is matchmaking and romance. Not that I don't like romances, I enjoy them! But not on the classics, please. And I found this book called 'The Widow of OZ' in a second-hand book store in Ampang Point, KL, last week and I'd love to read it but they don't have it in Kuching. Plus, Murakami Haruhi is an interesting author. I loved his books such as 'Elephant Vanishes' and 'Dance Dance Dance'. They were just fantabulous.

p.s. 2:

Everyone watched the Batman movie and are kind of excited about Joker. My brother's a fan of the animated series on Cartoon Network so I think I'm gonna go watch it with my brother before I leave :)

Joker is a freak. I know.

In Kuala Lumpur

2008-07-24T07:48:00.002-07:00

Yea! I'm in Kuala Lumpur! To be more specific, I'm at a cyber-cafe in Bukit Bintang, right across my hotel. It's nice to be out here, and KL is surely a big city compared to Kuching(I think I like Kch better tho..). I have an appointment at the embassy tomorrow morning and it's like 11 p.m. now.... I know I've gotta have some sleep but just the moment I was about to quit, one of my friend started talking to me on MSN :P So, I'm just lingering here. This afternoon, I went to the KLCC and did a bit of shopping. A book, some stationaries, a new pencilcase, pore packs, a hairpin etc. There are so many Arab people out here -especially in Bkt Bintang- , and it feels like being in Egypt again despite the scents of D24 and hokkien mee. Not so alien for me. Well, I was going to write more, but since it's getting late I guess I should get off now and get a can of shandy before going back to my hotel room. I really can't meet the ambassador in my not-so-good condition. Hmph, Good night :)

Stuff

2008-07-15T07:18:00.005-07:00

I'm currently reading this book called "Middlesex" by Jeffrey Eugenides. Its title is doubtlessly very interesting and eye-catching, which made me have this irresistable impulse to get it and read it when I saw it in the MPH last Friday(which was 11th of July) :P

And NO, it's not a homosexual or trans-gender thing, it's about a biological tragedy caused by kinship marriages of a family, and bits and pieces of history of Greece and America from 1922. Some parts are kind of educational. Really.

The book is a narrative of a person named Cal, who was born a girl but turned a boy as she(or he) grew up. The narrator asserts that it's all genetic and tells a chronological history of his ancestors, starting from his grandparents, who were siblings.

The disease which turned Cal into a hermaphrodite is called "Gender Identity in 5-Alpha-Reductase Pseudohermaphrodites", - which I have no idea if anything like that actually exists - according to the author, and just like what we've learnt in Bio classes, the gene that contained the faulty allele was a recessive one. However, the fault was visible on her(or rather, him) as she turned a teenager.

Actually, I don't know the rest of the story since I'm still halfway through. It's really a long, very long narrative for a family history. The thing is, that, it's not so boring as you may expect.

The whole story is very well developed(so far) and it well has an interesting flow of the events. Except the first few pages where the narrator briefly tells about his popularity among biologists and physicians - which I really couldn't catch in the beginning -, it's all so amazingly comprehensible albeit its professional uses of vocabularies and unbelieveable events(which most of us do not usually see, like: war, slaughters, illiterate soldiers raping doctor's daughters and then cutting their breasts off, and of course, sibling-marriages). And the author's descriptive language is almost wonderful(it's usually American and sometimes Homeric).

The pic above is the final piece for the 2nd term Art&Design paper 2.

She a friend(an ex-classmate)of Cho Hee's, and if I trail back, a friend of a friend of my friend(not Cho Hee of course). Because she is a costume player, the links somehow met :P(However she doesn't know of my existancy)

It's pretty well done(The camera lense tilted and distorted the whole thing a bit but it looks better if you actually see it) and Mr Mo wanted to put this pic up on the bulletin in the hallway.. but I was like "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" because, kind of obviously, I feel bad about a person's face drawn, painted, and hung on a school bulletin without the model knowing it.

I'm gonna feel like a stalker if Mr Mo didn't give back the pic. However, in stead, my own face drawn by myself in cartoon style is(are; including the supportings) hung up there now. It's terribly embarrasing and I have to draw another pic to bring it down!!!!!(Ugh, why didn't I draw a random celebrity???)

This is a cross-stitch of a yellow rose which I managed to finish in 3 days; from 10~12 of Jul(Thuresday to Saturday), first 2 days being still during the exams. It was extremely fun although I stayed up until like 1 a.m. doing this when I was supposed to study, and again, a funny thing happened; I almost lost interest in it as soon as the exam was finished! LOL ;P

However I did another one - sth like a keychain - for Laura yesterday, because I knew she'd get a whole bunch of pig dolls from all the other ppl and she was kind of impressed when she saw my rose the other day and indeed, liked it :)

Of course she liked it and I received like, 2 kisses from her in return... *blush* Happy birthday, Laura!

Urm, another random thing. I have a friend who looks like Alicia Keys back in Egypt. I just so suddenly realised that while watching MTV yesterday. She's a half-blood Korean, her father being an Italian. I hadn't been in touch with her for a while, but it'd be nice to visit her facebook again once in a while.

And like always, sorry for not k.i.t. all the time :P
(I really want to update more often, but I just can't somehow.)

***p.s.
Can you please tag me if you have a link to my blog on your blogs so that I can link you back? I really gotta have all the links but it's hard to decide where to begin with. tks!

@ skool

2008-06-30T17:44:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since I last updated my blog.. So I'm just gonna do it now, which is the IT class :P And OMG the practical thing is darn hard I can't really figure out how to do this and that. I totally suck in excel and database stuff. I see a lot of people quitting the extended class nowadays- it's a bit last-minute but core should be easier. I used to complain about HTML last year, but that was like, nothing compared to this. I'm so tired without a proper reason. It's not like I'm studying for the exams at all, or doing something useful for my "future".. All I'm doing recently is downloading and listening to musics. I sleep a LOT and just started believing that all this tirednesses are due to the weather, which as well could be an externalist-thought (lol!) Oh yeah, I did my BM oral last week.Tho it's a bit late to talk about it now, I just wanna post about it-I talked about a family trip to Singapore and the script was quite ok since Elise and Sharon helped me with it. And guess what MR. P said when I finished my oral! He was like, 'You sound like a Korean trying to speak in Bahasa.' OMG I never knew that I'm not a Korean or what I was trying to speak was not Bahasa. Now isn't that funny? Oops, I gotta go now. I'll update again ASAP :)

Some news about my lifey :P

2008-06-02T01:41:00.003-07:00

...Been away for a while! I don't mean travelling or anything, but literally I was away from the computer for that while and appearantly wasn't able to post anything.. Here's what happened: First my internet was disconnected 'cause the wire thingy was burnt down from the sunlight(at the same time, my neighbour suffered the exactly same thing 'cause their internet wire's connected to ours. I'm not really sure what was the real problem; their wire or ours?) so it was a real wreck and took a LOTTA time to be recovered(the TM people came and went for like 5 times!)... And then I was busy, -which is kind of weird because I had almost no visible reason to be- and I had to come and go here and there with my dad, my mum, my parents, my family, and by myself. Can't specifically say what about, but anyways it happened to be :P And then my computer's a massive problem! It'd take almost a half an hour to boot up properly and let me do something else then playing solitaire!!!! Gosh, I already did the disk checking and formatting - all! And I don't get what's the problem with this darn desktop.. For there's supposed to be none ;-( I can't even call the technician 'cause what this computer has is a complete Korean Version of MS-XP, and wouldn't show the settings in English. It's seriously crap. Besides all that, I've got a happy news for myself XD Someone is recovering from a terrible traffic accident 2 months ago and was permitted to go home from the hospital by the end of last month.. That person can even walk now! I was happy to hear that 2 nights ago :) Oh and one more thing, I think I lost my cell. I just can't find it :( Maybe it's just my own clumsiness that I can't find it, but it's not like I have really tried yet. I tried calling it, but it wouldn't ring anywhere in the house.. and for me it seems like the battery's dead. Or maybe it's in my Mum or Dad's car, hiding somewhere under the seat or accidentally dropped into the trunk. I shell look for it again when I need it :P Urm, and sorry I don't have any recent pics drawn. I do have some up in my room, but not on the computer-.. It's strange 'cause now it's holidays and I'm having more than plenty of time, but it's still hard for me to find some time to do smth.. I really gotta get my head into something. Really. p.s. I kinda really want to quit what I've been up to till now, after that I've seen what a REAL world's like. But there's always better options to go for.

A Great Escape

2008-05-21T23:09:00.002-07:00

Yo! I'm having an afternoon off :) Not to say thet I forgot to do my book review on time and just decided to go home but my parents were way too busy to come over and couldn't find a reason to pick me up in the middle of the school-day but I desperately had to find a way out from not being able to submit my homework and getting scolded by she-teacher... um, so here I am! I just wondered my way off a few feets from the school and lunched in a quite decent food court nearby; and since I've got until 4 o' clock to kill, I walked straight into this cyber cafe with my school uniform on :P (I've ran out of the school during lunchtime and it's almost 2:30 now) Oh and by the way anyone who might be reading this, you gotta promise me that you won't tell the teachers nor my parents - it seems like everyone knows where my blog is(I've NO idea where you all pick my blog addie from!), and there's a possibility that the whole year 11 will have read about this by next morning XP Hmph, gotta get a whatsthatcalled- tagbox? and then go off for a game on counter strike :P A guy sitting next me is playing it, and is pretty good.. Just been tempted! LOL :D

Finally posting!

2008-05-12T04:27:00.004-07:00

So, I've got those people nagging me to post something on my blog. I admit that I was being lazy to update, and I didn't even add people back on the link.. But, hey. I hadn't anything to post on! Urm, not 'nothing at all', though :P

Just to be a little cheeky, I was kinda busy. And I'm not even lying(I don't lie! I can't!)! .....I was busy reading books, writing some stuff, playing piano, listening to radio, watching movies on HBO, watching Travel&Living channel with my mum, going to the Spring by myself(which sounds like a total loner and a loser but it's quite fun to be at places like that on your own, sometimes!), having some waffles, eating chicken rices and tuna sandwiches, playing games(mostly on-line, I confess ;P), ~~drawing~~scribbling not on my sketch-book, chewing some bagusttes with milk, et cetera et cetera.

Now, here's a book I've been reading for past 2~3 days. I picked it up from a second-hand bookshop in KK city last year, and soon gave up reading because there were too much slangs in it. WAY TOO MUCH OF'EM!!!

2 gals living in NY(not sure whether they still do, but just assuming that they do,) wrote this bunch of crap and it's full of slang, SLANG, SLANGS!!!!!

The name of the main char is 'Girl', as shown on the cover(Charming, eh? A 'Citizen Girl'!). She's like this feminist working in a non-profit division of somewhere with this horrendous bosse, and gets herself fired by the end of the first chapter.

Yeah, 'Doris' is the boss' name, and this pic above is how the very first chapter of this book starts off with. A charming title, very eye-catching, but is sort of risky as well. I'm referring to myself as in last Friday's English class, when I brought this book in with me.. Mel was looking at the book and went "woow", at the sight of this fabulous title, and then someone walked over to our desks and bent over to see what Mel was woow-ing at.

Very fortunately for me, Mel quickly covered that part after the 'Mind', and there was no more visible foul language on that first page. All my thanks Melissa, and then she went like, "Hey, throw that away, now," after the class(LOL)

Now, a little warning before you scroll down.

... and so much more.

Well at least I think it was an okey time killer :P

The beginning of my new life

2008-04-29T05:13:00.003-07:00

It was the title for the Essay Competition earlier today. In fact it was supposed to be tomorrow but as most of the people are leaving to KL, plus we don't have English tomorrow in the timetable.. we just took it today!

Anas was like, "Are you serious, teacher?", and Mdm Armstrong was like, "Yes, I'm DEAD serious!"

It was so sudden that no one was actually ready for it( although there's no way that you can prepare for an English essay test) and I, too was sort of nerveous.

I wrote about a girl who just moved into a huge city, thinking of myself some times later :)
As I've mentioned before, I'm currently planning for a trip to NY and my parents are about to send me to Seattle for the rest of my high school education! The whole idea is just really fantastic that I even dream about it XP

I didn't do much drawings on computer recently, so the one above is the only one that I can post.. for now :)
It's kind of crappy and I JUST doodled this because I wanted to post something with my babbles on this blog... You know, things always look nicer with some 'multimedia' inside(which means images, pictures, music, animation and vedio clips by definition).

Oh, almost forgot to write a very important thing: I MCd the school assembly today ;D
I didn't really admit that I was kind of nerveous, but I made a small mistake by forgetting to tell the students to stand up for the National Amthem(Phew!). But 'twas all good other than that, I believe(Jasper told me that I looked and sounded nerveous but I wasn't mumbling or tremblig all over; he concluded that I was a fairly fine MC!).
Mr. Rogers, Mdm. Kathy and Mr. Lim complimented on my job and honestly, I'm happy about that :D

Well THAT was a bit out of the topic(But what's ever IN the topic? LOL).
But anyways I'm feeling all new already, so you can't tell that the title's a bad one! Hahaha :]

Ah, as for school, I'm not going tomorrow because it'd be darn boring without all the people around(who'll be having lotsa fun in KL). And I don't thing I'll be enjoying the state of being stuck up with the guys(sorry to say, but mostly Korean boys) and SILENTLY DOING REVISION PAPERS. -No thanks. HAHAHA.

So guess I'll be oversleeping tomorrow! Yippie!

DESTINATION

2008-04-19T06:32:00.003-07:00

Below this is some amature imitation of Jeremyville's style of illustration. I just love his pop-ish style of drawing that I even cried looking at his works! They're just so amazing and touching. Dunno what happened to me when I was looking at them, but it's true that I actually did CRY(with tears falling down on my cheek!)

[http://www.jeremyville.com <-this is the URL for his website. You really should visit it!]

My imitation wouldn't even half-way impresses others who might be looking at it, I know. But I drew it from a true desperation straight from my heart.

DESTINATION

I have absolutely no idea where to start or where to look at. That's where I am now, and I'm seriously lost in the middle of nowhere. People tell me that I'm already on my way, but how on earth'd they know about it? It's MY life!
Well I thought I knew the best of me. 'Who'd know me better than I do?', honestly, that's what I thought and what I still think. But the problem here is, even I don't know where I'm heading to. I feel so stupefied. Don't put the blame on me, it's not my fault. Please.

I've drawn the similar sort of thing on my palm on Friday, during the English class(Mdm Armstrong stopped over by my table and asked why the sun is crying :P). We were discussing about the direction in which the essey/story should/would go, and it was then when I picked up the word DESTINATION from the teacher's writing on the whiteboard.

I don't quite know where I should go or look at. I'm tremendously confused.

Hippifola

2008-04-15T06:37:00.005-07:00

Hey hey hey! The exams are finally over! Alright, I admit that you couldn't possibly find a trace of exams from my blog, 'cause I never mentioned anything about it. And honestly, I didn't even look at the books! ...I mean the ones that you should be analysing through and through for questions from it, not the books like 'TROY' which I enjoyed reading last week(exam week)!

We had to write this essay about 'Reflections' about those exams today in the English class, and I wrote everything down so honestly, saying: "I felt really bad about myself, seeing all those people with red eyes and dark circles under them from little sleep and huge amounts of studies, whereas I slept for almost 10~11 hours a day and enjoyed my time surfing the Net, chatting with people, watching TV and reading novels et cetera..."
I REALLY feel bad now. But what am I to do now, when all is done? There's no use to cry over spilled milk, like I always say.

I mean, what's life all about? It's for you to have fun and be happy! You'll waste it if you don't be positive enough :) Oh maybe I'm being a way too positive, but never mind that. What can I do? I don't feel like crying over those papers, which are all long gone from my mind!

.......And please forget about the negative me.. :$
(I never said a word about being worthless at ALL, just for your information!)

I don't like her eyes, and that part of her mouth is not very satisfactory..... And the clothes are way too dark, blah blah blah... Anyways it's not a BIG deal, isn't it?

That girl in the pic(of course I mean the second one. Don't really look at the upper one, it's done in less then 5 minutes and I'm even embarrassed to post it on my blog!) reminds me of someone, let's say one of my friend's mother :) She(I mean the mum) looks so young despite of all her age(I think she's almost 50 now) and she looks EXACTLY the same with her own son(my friend)! I was really stunned and kind of shocked too, when I saw her pic. She's not a beauty, but she's still like a girl and living a life of her own(she has a business!)... I really admire her :D (Although my dear friend complained that she's never doing any sort of housework and leaves them all to her only son :P )

Anyways,(that was out of topic) all I wanted to say was that I'm feeling much better now.. compared to past few weeks' moods I was in :-D

See? I even doodled something and talked(wrote) a lot!

Appreciation on education.

2008-04-14T02:02:00.002-07:00

I suddenly felt bad about myself as I read Astrea's article about education and appreciating what we have.. Because I'm not really appreciating the education which I am receiving. To tell you the truth, I terribly miss my old school which had a HUGE campus and GREAT foods, BETTER facilities, NICER teachers and some FREEDOM in which some of the students were able to cheat in the auditorium and the exam halls, skip off some classes, hide in a locker room somewhere and hang out with your boyfriend/girlfriend under the shades where nobody's gonna find you, or go up to some unused classrooms and smoke a bit for leisure(not that I did ;P) But I ended up here in Kuching, where there are prefects to chase you around to nag and bully you(although I am one of them, I don't really feel much 'responsibility' or whatsoever.. I've even been bringing my phone to school during the exams!), and where you are stuck darn so close with primary 1 kids running around the corridors in a single building which, in my standard, was so small and filthy when I first transferred into this school. My point is, I've never been really satisfied with the environments that I've been given. To be honest, I didn't LOVE my old school either. It was so natural for me that my school was so beautiful and full of staffs, cleaners, guards and polices! But once I came here, I started to miss there desperately. And I think I might feel the same way once I leave this school. I'm planning a trip to NYC by July, to check out how my college'd look like. My parents have been suggesting that I go for the summer pre-college program and try the lectures out ever since I came back from Korea last month, but I literally closed my heart and ears towards them. It was you who said it's too expensive, you are the ones who've been telling me to grab something other than art. Why are you doing this to me? Why did you guys suddenly change your minds? I was distressed, really. I wanted to go, but they've been distracting me, telling me that I should be staying with them FOR EVER in this small city. I seriously wanted to leave, but I didn't like them changing their minds as though they're flipping a paper over. So I didn't bother listening. But once I talked to some of my friends in Cairo and California, I set my mind to leave. Just to see what it's like. Everyone'd say that it's much better to live in the New York City than Korea. I've been to LA before, and I've indeed liked it. That was simply why. I'm a self-centered and a person on the edge. I never ever appreciate what I can have. But from my point of view, things have been bad enough for me. Can't they just come one at a time??? On the other hand, I still appreciate my capability to waste money on hair-maintenance, movie tickets, dates(tho it's mainly the guys who spend more;P), and the access to Internet! That's counted as a good thing, right? Oh well, this posting is simply meaningless. Forgive my babbles ;P

Allegra Infinito.

2008-04-13T03:24:00.003-07:00

Yes, the title of this blog. Thanks to dear Astrea who kindly gave me this name :)

I've doodled something on my painter, and this looks quite okay for me..

I mean, it kind of looks okay. Not up to the standard, and I didn't really concentrate while I was doing this(mainly because of my brother, who was watching Nickelodeon beside me)

"Allegra Infinito"

In fact I have no idea if the word 'infinito' really even exists, but as Allegra sounds Italian, I just decided to use it. First I thought of using 'viva' in stead of it, however I ended up naming it this way. Dunno why, but it sounds nice :P

The background was supposed to look like this. Originally this pic has a huge resolution of 966*300, in which you'll be able to see all my tiny little sloppy mistakes here and there XD

Here is a zoomed-up version of the girl. Personally what I like about her is the color of her hair.. It's the hottest pink! I wish I could have a hair like that :D

Other things like eyes and headset, I don't really appreciate them tho. Some details are missing and she 'freaks' my brother out (laugh out loud!)

About being useless.

2008-04-12T22:21:00.002-07:00

I suddenly realised that a human being is the most feeble and useless thing than anything that exists in this world. And I'm SERIOUS. If I had a chance to choose, I would have rather liked to be a random rock or some kind of weed on the street, even though that might mean that I gotta be kicked around by people, cars and dogs. Really, it doesn't matter a bit for me. I'd prefer it that way. At least, weeds and rocks can't feel or think, or forced to look at others' faces wondering if the person in front of me likes what I'm saying or not.

No, I'm not stressed out about THAT point of being a human. But think about it, life could be a whole lot easier if I was a mere stone. Ain't I right?

It is a disgusting thing to be a human. And life as a human stinks. You are practically useless thing in this universe! Not just useless, but a bad, bad thing! Exhaling a large amount of carbon dioxide for lifetime, polluting air, rivers, lakes, seas and earth.. destroying ozone layer, sending spacecrafts and satellites into the space to create more and more waste materials, they are numberless to count. Oh, one more thing; giving birth to their heirs in order to let them continue this destruction in later generations. Heck. People these days even burn themselves into ashes when they die off. What waste of nitrogen(Hope I named the right substance :P)!

O.K. I'll tell you what. It's all because I am feeling useless and actually am kind of cynical today. All negative and angry(Note that I'm not like this all the time!). But see, now I'm like,

rather than

No, I'm not depressed at all. I just feel useless and it makes me angry.

About what? Well, guess it's myself. I can't really blame anyone, can I? I mean, I can't blame my parents for giving birth to me(although sometimes I do feel like putting the blame on them), or the God for creating me and giving me life. I know life is a precious thing, and no one's supposed to kill themselves or whatsoever(still there are people who do, tho)... But seriously human's of NO GOOD at all! There's no way you can defend this evil species! I am useless, and that's definitely a fact. Alright, there might be someone saying no, and thank you if you think so, but, ah. I don't wanna argue about it. Just leave me alone to criticise and insult myself.

Again I say, I'm not sad or depressed. I'm just angry about humans being so useless, useless, USELESS.

Hello, world.

2008-04-12T03:04:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's my new blog in English!

To be honest, I had had some English versions of blogs before. And they all ended up like,

Oh yeah. Shame on me. But I'll do better this time. It's a promise! So I guess I'll have to this time :)

Alright, here it goes; about myself!

My nick is Allegra now, but I have several other names that ppl call me with, so you can call me in any others (i.e. Coin, Violet, Yuvy etc.).

Age : currently 16

D.O.B.: 12 January 92

Nationality : Korean

Present Location : Kuching, Malaysia. (Gonna leave as soon as I graduate at the end of this year! ...Hopefully:P)

Zodiac : Capricorn

Interests : arts, anime, dancing, dating, doodling, drawing, movies, music, reading(depends on the book tho;P), piano, on-line relationships et cetera (in fact there are dozens more!)

This blog will mainly consist of my doodlings, some personal cheat-chats(basically self-talking), and some reviews of books and movies :)