Appreciation on education.

I suddenly felt bad about myself as I read Astrea's article about education and appreciating what we have.. Because I'm not really appreciating the education which I am receiving. To tell you the truth, I terribly miss my old school which had a HUGE campus and GREAT foods, BETTER facilities, NICER teachers and some FREEDOM in which some of the students were able to cheat in the auditorium and the exam halls, skip off some classes, hide in a locker room somewhere and hang out with your boyfriend/girlfriend under the shades where nobody's gonna find you, or go up to some unused classrooms and smoke a bit for leisure(not that I did ;P) But I ended up here in Kuching, where there are prefects to chase you around to nag and bully you(although I am one of them, I don't really feel much 'responsibility' or whatsoever.. I've even been bringing my phone to school during the exams!), and where you are stuck darn so close with primary 1 kids running around the corridors in a single building which, in my standard, was so small and filthy when I first transferred into this school. My point is, I've never been really satisfied with the environments that I've been given. To be honest, I didn't LOVE my old school either. It was so natural for me that my school was so beautiful and full of staffs, cleaners, guards and polices! But once I came here, I started to miss there desperately. And I think I might feel the same way once I leave this school. I'm planning a trip to NYC by July, to check out how my college'd look like. My parents have been suggesting that I go for the summer pre-college program and try the lectures out ever since I came back from Korea last month, but I literally closed my heart and ears towards them. It was you who said it's too expensive, you are the ones who've been telling me to grab something other than art. Why are you doing this to me? Why did you guys suddenly change your minds? I was distressed, really. I wanted to go, but they've been distracting me, telling me that I should be staying with them FOR EVER in this small city. I seriously wanted to leave, but I didn't like them changing their minds as though they're flipping a paper over. So I didn't bother listening. But once I talked to some of my friends in Cairo and California, I set my mind to leave. Just to see what it's like. Everyone'd say that it's much better to live in the New York City than Korea. I've been to LA before, and I've indeed liked it. That was simply why. I'm a self-centered and a person on the edge. I never ever appreciate what I can have. But from my point of view, things have been bad enough for me. Can't they just come one at a time??? On the other hand, I still appreciate my capability to waste money on hair-maintenance, movie tickets, dates(tho it's mainly the guys who spend more;P), and the access to Internet! That's counted as a good thing, right? Oh well, this posting is simply meaningless. Forgive my babbles ;P